My Ultimate Procrastination

This has been a loooong time coming! Like a few years, that's how long. This is probably the thing I have put off for the longest amount of time, while still maintaining the desire to do it. Well, besides tying the knot with MJ, but without a ring I put the blame on him. So, what have I been eagerly dragging my heels toward?

 

 

Going to Design School! I think I announced to Matt I wanted to go to Interior Design school probably 2-3 years ago, but then the enrollment deadlines would come and go and I would just tell myself "next semester". Lets just make a list of the excuses I would give myself.

1. Money
2. Enrollment date had passed
3. College is scary
4. When would I fit it in to my schedule
5. I'll be the old person in class
6. I haven't been in school since 2000

Most of the time the thought of going to school would creep up, I'd check to see when school was starting (tomorrow? Shit.), and resolve to sign up for next semester. One time I even applied, got accepted, and then left it at that. I'm still not really sure how I managed to make it all the way to my first day of school, but here I am.

 

I didn't even really mention it much to my friends and family because I still felt like it wasn't really going to happen. Not because I had changed my mind or anything, it just didn't feel real. Does that make sense? In fact, it still feels very surreal. I was sitting in class today, learning how to use an architectural scale, and just felt really weird (is this real life?).

 

I've haven't slept well this week either. I think the stress of starting something new is making me toss and turn all night. I feel like I'm half awake all night wondering if I'll be any good at this, if I'll be able to keep up in class, what sorority I'll pledge.... Wait, I'm just going to community college, I don't think they have those there. Seriously though, I'm still a little psyched out even after my second day of class.

 

On a positive note, my student ID picture turned out pretty well if I do say so myself.

 

 

So, there it is. I don't really know what else to say about school. It's still scary, I still feel like I have no clue what I'm actually doing there, but I'll share little updates now and then. Wish me luck!

 

Nikki Kelly